What Am I Waiting For?

Maybe I was dropped on my head as a child a few times too many. Maybe I'm just naturally born stupid. Whatever the case, I know I should be smarter than this. When I was growing up, I was always told that a man who hits a woman, regardless of whether she started it or not, is not a man. I told myself I was never, ever going to be in a relationship like that, that the second he lays hands on my I'm gone. Where did that girl go, anyway? I could really use her right now. I guess everything changes when there's a baby involved. It should be giving me more incentive to leave, but where would I go? Back to my mom, who will just try to control me? To Texas, where I have no other family? His family will turn against me when I go, without a doubt. They will try to take my baby. I never imagined my life would turn out this way. I guess that's the thing about life, though. It's unpredictable. You can't ever expect it to go the way you planned, because, like a baseball game, it can throw a curve-ball any second and you can strike out. I guess, in a lot of ways, life is like a baseball game. I wish I had played the sport when I was younger. I could really use some tips right now.